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Saturday, October 01, 2005
So! I've finally succumbed to the blogging frenzy my dearest boy and his pals have started. Not a bad thing actually, since they've created limitless entertainment for everyone else. But that doesn't mean that i'm about to become a source of gossip and open up my thoughts to the whole world. I am essentially still a person who likes to keeps things to herself, albeit the boyfriend's desperate and exasperated attempts to get her to speak up. Some things just can't be changed overnight. But nevetheless, everyone has their darkest deepest thoughts that nobody knows about.
Anyways, school is midway through now and i've never felt so screwed up before for the past 1 and a half year. Superb. I've only recently caught up with the fluid mechanics and thermodynamics with minimal understanding. The thing i'm best in now is Thai which isn't even my core module. I should just lock myself up! About time to pull up my socks and sleep amongst my notes. Somehow, i've lost the amazing drive i had last 2 sems to study for 10 over hours a day and sleep for 2 or 3. I need that drive back. To think that i'm a little less busy now than in last sem, being secretary at Blast! and singing and dancing in hall and 3 tuition kids to take care of. I should be studying instead of talking nonsense here. I know. But i just can't bring myself to do it. Bleah.
I've been more involved in hall this year, giving up engin club for hall. I'd love to say that it's a worthy choice since engin people aren't on my wavelength, but sometimes, hall life gets so taxing and tiring that backing out isn't a faraway thought. I love the fact that being in hall gives more opportunities to perform, although the audience are the hall residents. I love being on stage and hall has finally given me a chance to sing on stage, other than dancing on stage. I'm even gonna get to sing AND dance on stage in hall production. But are all these worth giving up family time for? I realize that i've been seeing very little of my family, very little of the outside world. I see my siblings for a little more than 24 hours on free weekends and less than 24 hours if i'm too busy. My parents don't say anything, but i know that they would rather i stay at home and look after them. On the other hand, hall life lets me hang around people my own age so i don't become some weirdo. Guess i'll have to weigh my choices again after production.
For now, it's time to bathe after a little gym session for the girl who's getting fat. The vices of hall life. Supper.
Anyways, school is midway through now and i've never felt so screwed up before for the past 1 and a half year. Superb. I've only recently caught up with the fluid mechanics and thermodynamics with minimal understanding. The thing i'm best in now is Thai which isn't even my core module. I should just lock myself up! About time to pull up my socks and sleep amongst my notes. Somehow, i've lost the amazing drive i had last 2 sems to study for 10 over hours a day and sleep for 2 or 3. I need that drive back. To think that i'm a little less busy now than in last sem, being secretary at Blast! and singing and dancing in hall and 3 tuition kids to take care of. I should be studying instead of talking nonsense here. I know. But i just can't bring myself to do it. Bleah.
I've been more involved in hall this year, giving up engin club for hall. I'd love to say that it's a worthy choice since engin people aren't on my wavelength, but sometimes, hall life gets so taxing and tiring that backing out isn't a faraway thought. I love the fact that being in hall gives more opportunities to perform, although the audience are the hall residents. I love being on stage and hall has finally given me a chance to sing on stage, other than dancing on stage. I'm even gonna get to sing AND dance on stage in hall production. But are all these worth giving up family time for? I realize that i've been seeing very little of my family, very little of the outside world. I see my siblings for a little more than 24 hours on free weekends and less than 24 hours if i'm too busy. My parents don't say anything, but i know that they would rather i stay at home and look after them. On the other hand, hall life lets me hang around people my own age so i don't become some weirdo. Guess i'll have to weigh my choices again after production.
For now, it's time to bathe after a little gym session for the girl who's getting fat. The vices of hall life. Supper.
posted by jL # 23:30 
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